Joy

September 2008: Job interview that would impact my life...
October 2008: Start my new job at.... WC Preschool/CC
I meet this little boy. Little did I know he would one day teach me a lesson.
March 17, 2009: This little boy lost his mother, I remember days after this I would just hold him and days we laughed together, played tag together....
When he returned to school, kids often made comments like: "he doesn't have a mommy."
One day we were playing outside and Ethan came to me and sad, "My daddy says if I close my eyes real tight I can see my mommy and I can talk to her anytime."
I may have told you this in another post but.. I found it replaying in my mind last night as I was reading Abbie's blog. I went to bed with tear filled eyes as the picture in her blog made me speechless. I only met Andrea twice. She may have not even known my name, which is funny because I feel I know so much about her life in how her friends and family love and continue to find a cure.
As I said Abbie's post could not have been written any better...
I laid in bed lost for words...
confused......as to why God does what He does? I prayed for the Boes family and for me to find meaning in all of this...
This Morning..... I read...... "PSALMS 30:5 ....weeping may remain for a night, but joy comes in the morning...."
Wow right? Did I read this in my Bible? No
It was on the very 1st page of a book a started reading today. So when I got home I opened my Bible and read some more....
verse 5.."For His anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. V6. When I felt secure, I said "I will never be shaken."
It is always good to know God is with us, even when we are down in the dumps. When I read this I knew I needed to be thinking of all the JOY this boy brought to my life! How much he looks like his mom is just another symbol of her life, a reminder that we should live life to the fullest for tomorrow is never a given...
Saturday I will take part in the Andrea Boes Relay for life 5K/10K. I'm not a runner so this should be interesting! BUT I know God with be with us, and when He is with us we can NEVER be shaken!

"I will help you"

I had a totally different post planned out but it's deleted and this is what I want to say:

I struggle.

I have faults.

I fail.

But I still have God.

Isaish 41:10-13 "So do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and HELP YOU; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish. Though you search for your enemies, you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be as nothing at all. For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I WILL HELP YOU"

Isn't God all we need?

I've struggled to find God this past few months. Maybe that is why I stopped blogging, I began writing in my Pray journal again because some of my thoughts were so deep it even hurt me to write them. When I was greiving it was so easy to find God, I talked to him on my way to school, I talked to him in the evening, it was just a constant thing. As the months went on I felt I had less to talk about?!? I was confused as to why I felt so distant from Him now. Sunday this verse was mentioned. It hit home.... As I sat there I remembered some of the people that helped me through difficult times or that I have helped. I realized some of those people aren't in my life much anymore. I want to change that! Also, I want to be confident in myself to reach out and help those who need God!

So my Challenge is I'll help you if you help me!