It has been a long two weeks since I last posted but I've been super busy. I hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas season! As most of you know it was our Christmas to be in Mississippi with my dads' sister and her family. I was there for a week. It was a long drive but totally worth it. We are such a close family that each time we get to see each other it's special. Of course when it's time to leave it breaks my heart. I miss out on so much of their lives. Garrett is a freshman in high school and will have his license the next time I see him. Parker will be 7 in Feb. It's unbelievable how fast they grow up. It doesn't seem long ago that I was holding Parker in the hospital room. He truly is a gift from God. I miss them so much. I think I cried for 10 minutes after we left. Yes, I know I cry all the time. :) I just have to remind myself that I'll see them in May at Lance's graduation.
Yesterday was my first day home and I got a lot accomplished. I unpacked my suitcase, which seems to take forever. I cleaned my room, dusted and everything. I went to town and ran some errands and at night went to Bobe's for supper and went to see Marley and Me! Which I loved. I've been begging for a dog for about 5 years and I'm not getting anywhere but I'm not giving up! Today I took down the Christmas tree and the rest of the decorations. Fun, Fun.
I can't believe this year is over. As I look back on this past year, I have many struggles and accomplishments. Last Jan. I struggled with being away from home. I just felt like I need to be home with my family. I didn't understand why but I finished out the year and came home. Then summer came we had family vacations and weddings which were fun. By fall, a started school again only I was by myself. In a new place, but don't get me wrong I enjoy being home. My dad had back surgery in August so I was able to take care of him. I had the same routine everyday. Then came the death of Patrick, who I would say was a family friend. My mom use to give him his allergy shots. That was a wake up call. I think I drove Lance crazy. Every time there was a wreck or he wouldn't answer his phone I would freak out. He would usually tell me he's okay and not to worry so much. I was beginning to not worry so much, to let my guard down when the passing of Jim put me back into my worrying "mode." I can honestly say not a day goes by that I don't think about those girls. I think that no one at their age should ever have to go through the things they are. I pray to God that He gives them strength to get through each day. I love them all soo much. Even though we have times of struggle throughout this past year, it has made my relationship with God even stronger!
As you bring in your New Year, remember to be thankful for the things you have been blessed with in 2008. God has bigger plans for you in 2009. I can't wait to see the things He was planned for me!
Keep looking up!
God bless
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Strength for each day
It's almost been a week since I've been on here so let me catch you up! I finished this semester of school last Wednesday! WO WO! I was so glad to be done with school till next year!
Friday night me and some of the girls went to eville to celebrate Steph being totally done with school (classes). We went and enjoyed supper at Red Lobster and it was so good! After that we indulged into some shopping. Who can come to eville and not shop? not me! :) Anyways we had a great night, laughing and catching up on things. I'm glad we can all find time to get to together.
Saturday came and it was like someone had turned a switch inside of me. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to do anything. I finally got up and went and laid on the couch. (not much progress) I was sad, depressed, lonely..etc. My heart just felt like it was in a million pieces and I couldn't figure out how to put it back together. I didn't feel like even taking a shower, but I was hoping once I did I would begin to feel better. I just couldn't bring myself to get up. I felt like I cried all day. Tears were just a constant battle to hold back. I finally decided to go to Wal-Mart because no one was home. I cried on my way to wal-mart and as I was walking in. I thought "God what are you doing to me?" "You give me good days and then you give me days like today?" Then I thought of something I read saying "God didn't promise days without pain, but strength for the day" I was thinking okay God I hear You BUT why? Over the next couple of days He showed me why. Sunday came and I woke up and went to church by myself. As I walked in I saw it was the children's Christmas program. Children melt my heart. I love them. My thought was God, You know my heart! You know what I need. When I got home from church my dad took me and Gage out for lunch, just us! :) After lunch we all went to Wal-Mart to get some last minute things for my dad's trip to Phoenix later that day. That's another reason I thank God, family.
We went to bed Sunday just like any other night. I was suddenly awakened by the power-surges we were having due to the wind and rain. My printer was driving me crazy. So, I finally just unplugged all of it. A few minutes later my mom came to my room saying she smelt something burning! My first thought was our house was on fire, but that wasn't the case. We couldn't figure out where this smell was coming from. Some of our lights worked and some didn't. The computers seemed fine. Remember my dad was in Phoenix, so me and my mom were like should we call grandpa, it's 3:30 in the morning. We ended up calling him and he came over and fixed the lights. But we still didn't know where the smell was coming from until last night. My brother (lance) went to plug the computer back in and gave him a good shock and burnt his finger. :( Then they noticed it had burnt the floor(shh don't tell my dad, just yet) and the surge protector had done it's job. I was thankful that we had finally figured it out and I didn't have to worry anymore. When we spoke to my dad about this he words were "we could replace the house, I just want you guys to be safe." God will protect us! so to answer my question, "why God can't promise days without pain?' Because look at all the things He gives us, a home, a family, friends, and children. We have so much to be thankful for. God loves us unconditionally and even though we have bad days He will give us the STRENGTH to get through them.
Last night I helped out at Jubilee Christmas at Providence. I felt like it was the least I could do to give to those that our less fortunate than myself. I really enjoy it. Me and my grandpa were in charge of gift wrapping! :)
Anyways, sorry that this got soo long. Hope you're having a good week! Keep looking up! :)
~All my love
Friday night me and some of the girls went to eville to celebrate Steph being totally done with school (classes). We went and enjoyed supper at Red Lobster and it was so good! After that we indulged into some shopping. Who can come to eville and not shop? not me! :) Anyways we had a great night, laughing and catching up on things. I'm glad we can all find time to get to together.
Saturday came and it was like someone had turned a switch inside of me. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to do anything. I finally got up and went and laid on the couch. (not much progress) I was sad, depressed, lonely..etc. My heart just felt like it was in a million pieces and I couldn't figure out how to put it back together. I didn't feel like even taking a shower, but I was hoping once I did I would begin to feel better. I just couldn't bring myself to get up. I felt like I cried all day. Tears were just a constant battle to hold back. I finally decided to go to Wal-Mart because no one was home. I cried on my way to wal-mart and as I was walking in. I thought "God what are you doing to me?" "You give me good days and then you give me days like today?" Then I thought of something I read saying "God didn't promise days without pain, but strength for the day" I was thinking okay God I hear You BUT why? Over the next couple of days He showed me why. Sunday came and I woke up and went to church by myself. As I walked in I saw it was the children's Christmas program. Children melt my heart. I love them. My thought was God, You know my heart! You know what I need. When I got home from church my dad took me and Gage out for lunch, just us! :) After lunch we all went to Wal-Mart to get some last minute things for my dad's trip to Phoenix later that day. That's another reason I thank God, family.
We went to bed Sunday just like any other night. I was suddenly awakened by the power-surges we were having due to the wind and rain. My printer was driving me crazy. So, I finally just unplugged all of it. A few minutes later my mom came to my room saying she smelt something burning! My first thought was our house was on fire, but that wasn't the case. We couldn't figure out where this smell was coming from. Some of our lights worked and some didn't. The computers seemed fine. Remember my dad was in Phoenix, so me and my mom were like should we call grandpa, it's 3:30 in the morning. We ended up calling him and he came over and fixed the lights. But we still didn't know where the smell was coming from until last night. My brother (lance) went to plug the computer back in and gave him a good shock and burnt his finger. :( Then they noticed it had burnt the floor(shh don't tell my dad, just yet) and the surge protector had done it's job. I was thankful that we had finally figured it out and I didn't have to worry anymore. When we spoke to my dad about this he words were "we could replace the house, I just want you guys to be safe." God will protect us! so to answer my question, "why God can't promise days without pain?' Because look at all the things He gives us, a home, a family, friends, and children. We have so much to be thankful for. God loves us unconditionally and even though we have bad days He will give us the STRENGTH to get through them.
Last night I helped out at Jubilee Christmas at Providence. I felt like it was the least I could do to give to those that our less fortunate than myself. I really enjoy it. Me and my grandpa were in charge of gift wrapping! :)
Anyways, sorry that this got soo long. Hope you're having a good week! Keep looking up! :)
~All my love
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Little notes.
Tonight I decided to go through some old notes and cards that I have been given over the past years. It's amazing to see what new things pop out at me when I read them now. Instead of me rambling tonight I thought I would just share some of the things I found. :)
You can make a difference in your world. It's not how much you accomplish in life that really counts but how much you give to others. It's not how high you build your dreams that makes a difference but how high your faith can climb. It's not how many goals you'll reach, but how many lives you touch. It's not whom you know that matters, but whom you are inside.
~Geneva
The 7 UPS
WAKE UP
..decide to have a good day.. Psalms 118:24
DRESS UP
...put on a smile... I Samuel 16:7
SHUT UP
..say nice things and learn to listen... Proverbs 13:3
STAND UP
..for what you believe in... Galatians 6:9-10
LOOK UP
..to the Lord... Philippians 4:13
REACH UP
....for something higher... Proverbs 3:5-6
LIFT UP
....your prayers.. Philippians 4:6
Make goals, aim high, and trust the Lord and He will see you through. ~Papaw Miller
"let go and let God"
I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me...Phil 4:13
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way
I hope everyone is having a good week. Just remember that God has control of whatever situation you may be going through. If you would like, please leave comments of verses, or messages that mean something to you! I would love to read them!
~All my love
You can make a difference in your world. It's not how much you accomplish in life that really counts but how much you give to others. It's not how high you build your dreams that makes a difference but how high your faith can climb. It's not how many goals you'll reach, but how many lives you touch. It's not whom you know that matters, but whom you are inside.
~Geneva
The 7 UPS
WAKE UP
..decide to have a good day.. Psalms 118:24
DRESS UP
...put on a smile... I Samuel 16:7
SHUT UP
..say nice things and learn to listen... Proverbs 13:3
STAND UP
..for what you believe in... Galatians 6:9-10
LOOK UP
..to the Lord... Philippians 4:13
REACH UP
....for something higher... Proverbs 3:5-6
LIFT UP
....your prayers.. Philippians 4:6
Make goals, aim high, and trust the Lord and He will see you through. ~Papaw Miller
"let go and let God"
I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me...Phil 4:13
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way
I hope everyone is having a good week. Just remember that God has control of whatever situation you may be going through. If you would like, please leave comments of verses, or messages that mean something to you! I would love to read them!
~All my love
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